میرا ذکر پڑھنے والے _میرا راستہ نہ چن لیں

سر ورق یہ بھی لکھنا مجھے مات ہوگئ تھی

For years

I beleived

in 

disappointment and hopelessness.

I lived in my murky thoughts, utmost depression and betrayel.

but somewhere inside me I prayed. 

That prayer, a very weak link to Allah (SWT) was a belief.

that link was life.

Sometimes, I think Allah SWT brought me to light, just because I prayed. And the same moment I realize I prayed only because Allah SWT wanted to give me Hidayat.

He knows the worst in me, my thoughts, my practices but even then he didn't abandon me for that long. He has right timings for us, now I realise. I understand everything every incident happened for a reason. His story of Sobia Ehsan is perfect. I thought I am a failure. But I am not. He has chosen me to bear His light. How can I be unsuccessful?