Showing posts with label Swaiba's Notes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Swaiba's Notes. Show all posts

Sunday, 20 January 2019

chehray tu ehl e shehr k pur sakoon thay magar
doobay huay zameer preshanioN main thay
phooloN main patharoN ko lapaitay huay Nadeem
masroof yaar log gul afshanioN main thay

Wednesday, 6 June 2018

Friday, 29 December 2017

Tum kabhi na rona, Allah kray tumhari aankh mein kabhi ansoo na aye. aur tumhara hath kabhi na jalay. na thorra na ziada. pata hay kabhi kabhi jb mera hath jl jata hay na pakoray bnatay huay, roti bnatay huay, ya piyaz bhoontay huay, tu mujhay buhat takleef hoti hay, baaz dafa nishan bn jata hay phir lgta hay k ye kabhi nahi jaye ga, lekin haftay das sin mein sab theek ho jata hay.... aur ye silsila chalta rehta hay. mein kabhi kabhi ziada ghbra jati hoon... ronay lg jati hoon, lekin Allah kray tum kabhi nahi ro. tumharay hath pr kabhi jalnay ka nishan na bnay.
pta hay do din pehlay mainay buhat ziada garm chaye p li. buhat garm, thundd itni thi k mujhay chaye ki garmi ka andaza he na hua, meri zuban se le kr halaq tk sb jl gya. kitni takleef hui. aur main roii bhi nahi. phir mujhay bukhar ho gya. sari raat jism tapta rha. mein kb roi aur kb soi, mujhay nahi pta. sirf do din lagay aur takleef chali gaii.
pta hay ziada dard kion hota hay, jb takleef ho aur aap izhaar na kr skain.

Sunday, 12 November 2017

kia sochtay rehtay ho
ankhoN se btao na
kia khojtay rehtay ho

Sunday, 16 July 2017

میرا ذکر پڑھنے والے _میرا راستہ نہ چن لیں
سر ورق یہ بھی لکھنا مجھے مات ہوگئ تھی

For years
I beleived
in 
disappointment and hopelessness.
I lived in my murky thoughts, utmost depression and betrayel.
but somewhere inside me I prayed. 
That prayer, a very weak link to Allah (SWT) was a belief.
that link was life.
Sometimes, I think Allah SWT brought me to light, just because I prayed. And the same moment I realize I prayed only because Allah SWT wanted to give me Hidayat.
He knows the worst in me, my thoughts, my practices but even then he didn't abandon me for that long. He has right timings for us, now I realise. I understand everything every incident happened for a reason. His story of Sobia Ehsan is perfect. I thought I am a failure. But I am not. He has chosen me to bear His light. How can I be unsuccessful?

Tuesday, 4 April 2017

Shopping Craze

kabhi tu khali jaib ka bharam khwahish ki ghair mojoodagi se rakha jata hay
aur kabhi khwahish ki adm mojoodgi ko khali jaib k bahana bna kr taalna parta hay

Sunday, 19 March 2017

Secret

dil se nikaal k dil main rakh!
apni baat pe
khud he ro kr
aansoo poonch.

Friday, 3 February 2017



Khwaihish bhi ajeeb chirriya hay

jb ain dastras mein ho tu phurrr se urr jati hay.

Monday, 17 October 2016

Adaab e Zindagi



murdon ki majboori tu smjh mein aati hay k wo qabar se nikal kr, milnay aanay walon ka na tu istaqbal kr sktay hain na salam ka jawab de sktay hain. Lekin ab tu (bazahir)-zinda insanon mein bhi yehi dastoor hay. Na salam, na dua. goya ye sb jeetay ji mar gaye hain.
..... ghar aur qabristan k mahol mein aakhir kuch tu faraq hona chahiay.
#219-C

Friday, 3 June 2016

KitaboN ki Kahani

Shehr Lahore jaaoon aur mash-hoor sarrak pr kitabein dhoondnay na jaoon aesa tu ho nahi skta
magar mein wahan jati kitni dafa hoon? saal mein do baar, teen baar!
pichli martaba jb mein wahan gaii tu kitaboN ki wo barri si dukan mujhay kafi khali khali mehsoos hui. na kitab, na khareedaar....
"kia sari kitabein bik gaiien? nia maal kb aye ga?", mein nay poocha.
"nahi baji, nia maal tu demand pr aata hay. jb bikri nahi hoti tu aur maal kia dalwana" dukandar ne jawab dia.
"magar kion?" mein ne hairat se poocha.
"baji, kitabein mehngi buhat hain. log ab kitabein nahi khareedtay... is karobar mein buhat manda hay, kaghaz, chapwaii hr cheez he mehngi hay.. qeemat na barhaien tu kharcha b poora nahi hota."
... khair mujhay tu us ne 33% discount de dia.
6 mah baad aaj phir mein usi sarrak pr kuch kitabein lenay nikli thi. wo dukan dhoondti rhi. phir aas paas ki dukanoN se us bookstore ka poocha tu pta chala aaj us jaga branded jootoN ki franchise ki opening hay.
mein us dukan k saamany he kharri thi... chamkati gaarioN ki parking k liay jaga km pr rhi thi. 

"kitaboN ki jaga jootay".... mujhay afsos hua.
meray ander sargoshi hui... "tum maanti nahi thi na... yahan kitaboN ki nahi jootoN ki zaroorat hay."

Friday, 20 May 2016

koi yahan tu koi wahaN wahan, wo sb jo qabroN mein parray sotay hain, kuch katbay k sath, kuch bilkul gum-naam.... kisi k bachay, maan baap, buhat he piyaray, ya koi aur aziz
Qabristan wahin reh jatay hain aur log duniya k tool-o-arz mein phail jatay hain. phir koi jo in soay huoN se milna chahay, fateha parhnay, salam krnay, khayal rakhnay. door darz se kitnay qabristanoN se guzar kr wo aa aatay hain.
mein soch rhi hoon kion na sb qabron se qatbay hata dein..
phir yuon ho
jo jis qabr se guzray, usay salam kray, us pr fateha parhay, goya wo uska apna hay.

Wednesday, 4 November 2015

Khaka: Humdard

subh saveray
main apnay ghar se nikloon
bus stop pr
tum aik nazar mujhko dekho
aur main apna rasta kho kr
teray humrah ho jaoon
tum jahan murro, mein murr jaoon
tum jahan ruko, mein ruk jaoon
tum phir chal do, mein bhi chal doon
jitna tez chalain hum dono
rasta utna lamba ho
hum dono k beech main
ik chup ho aur ik saya ho
kabhi tapti sarrak
kabhi nehr kinaray
ghanay darakhtoN k saye mein
tum aagay aagay
mein seher zda si peechay peechay
sham dhalay aur rastay saray
dhundlay parr jaein
tum mujhko aata dekhtay ho
aur apna raasta naaptay ho
phir raat k saaye gehray ho jaein
basti, jungle dhundlay rastay
sb peechay reh jayein
bas rait he rait ho
aur raigistaan k ain wast main
nakhlistan se thorra pehlay
tum ruk jao
main girtay parrtay tum tk puhanchoon
tum aik nazar meray ristay pairon ko dekho
phir mujhse poocho
"itni azeeyat kion leti ho?
ye samnay tu mera ghar hay,
tum apnay ghar ko kion nahi jati?"



Tuesday, 3 November 2015

Ab tum ja sktay ho

Kuch batein tu insan khud se b chupata hay. Doosron se kehna ho tu aur bhi sochna parrta hay. Pr tum ne tu kuch socha he nahi. Sabhi kuch keh dala. Wo sb bhi jis k baad kuch baaqi nahi bachta. Khamoshi bhi nahi.
Ab tum ja sktay ho.

Wednesday, 21 October 2015

Raat Phir

main sir ko rakh k apnay bazoo'ON pr
dilasa de rhi hoon dheeray dheeray
.... ro rhi hoon

Wednesday, 14 October 2015

itna dukh, kitna dukh

yahan buhat dard hay, meray dil main, be-chaini hay, aag hay, izterab hay. dukh denay waloN ki kaifiyat aesi honi bhi chahiay.
.... per aesa nahi hay, main dukh nahi dena chahti. aur isi liay tnha dard sehti rehti. baat niyat ki hay tu sirf Khuda aur banday k beech mein hay, makhlooq e khuda sirf kartoot dekhti hay.









kuch log buhat terhay hotay hain, aur aesay logoN ko seedha krnay ki koshish bhi nahi krni chahiay. bas daman bacha k guzar jana chahiay, unko seedha krtay krtay kahin aap he na toot jaein.

jin batoN ki samajh na aye un mein khud ko na uljhaein, tawaja na daein aesi batoN pr.

koi tumharay baray mein baat krta hay, tumhara naam leta hay, iska ye hargiz matlab nahi k wo is baat se khush hay, bulkay ye baat buhat taklif deh hoti ho g. main janti hoon.

apnay sukh k liay kisi aur ka sukh barbad krna kahaN ki insaniyat.





Aaj kuch likha nai ja rha.

Monday, 21 September 2015

The piece of writing comprises of hardly one short para and two three broken separate lines. Its full of hate, derogation and a tone that's heart pinching. Anyone reading this can doubt the mental soundness of the writer. I have read it twice to make sure that I am pronouncing it right, as I have read the last word "Rakhail". 
It's like someone has hit my heart with a heavy hammer and forgot to pull back. The weight on my chest is increasing by every breath I take. I've closed my eyes. I have adjusted my seat back to comfort my lumber. I have leaned my back on the seat. I have started looking out of the window. It has took me four years back. This is the same road, same journey and the same feelings when I talked to her for the last time.
I know there are moments in life all you want to do is to scream, to blow all the venom you have been absorbing for long. In those moments you need no counselling, no advises, no understandings but ventilation by saying whatever comes in your mind. In such cases even if one is supposed to respond but one should choose not to. One should realize that he is not able to hit every barking dog on the road neither capable of explaining himself to every raised eyebrow. 
Women understand their gender the best. That's why they prove to be the best friends and the worst enemies of each other. Nothing can be more harmful to a woman than another woman. Pity on her when she finds her man sleeping with another woman and call that woman, "you slut!!" How can she point her finger to another woman accusing her for unfaithfulness of her husband. Has there ever been a woman penalizing her husband for the flourishing brothels. Is it not a common sense that if she is in a business to sell sex there is a buyer to it? Doesn't it make a sense that if demand of a commodity will end the supply will go waist automatically? I don't know why there are always women killed in the name of honor. What if women start killing their men in the name of honor? But women will not because they love their husbands, their sons, their brothers and their fathers. They (women) will cover their (men's) sins with their lengthy scarfs, venomous taunts and curse towards the accused women. 
"Men are supposed to be enchanted, even by a weed stalk when wrapped in red." Her voice still echoes. 
"O Really?? is this the definition of a man? Of course not! you are just making a cover for your disloyal husband. Or it might be your experience as you might not have ever come across a real man!" there are always arguments left not responded.
I feel really painful when anyone accuse women for the obscenity in society. Why do we forget that the commandment on abstinence is first for men and then its for women ( Al-Quran 24:30,31).
One should not lose temperament in being judgmental about others. Every sinner has a future which we don't know. Being Muslims we are one, linked to each other, not opponents. So why don't we raise hands for prayer in their favor rather pointing fingers on them? Why don't we hold their hands to guide them to right path instead of calling them names? Why don't we teach and train them with our best manners and character instead of reflecting hate and derogation.
May Allah help all of us to be on the right path. Amen.

Monday, 10 August 2015

Elegy

Ajab ghum ki dhamak! Dil pr parri hay
Udaasi aainoN se jhankti hay
Yeh kis manzar mein tumne sath chorra
Meri tasveer aadhi reh gyii hay

Tumhara hath abhi tu hath pr tha
Achanak aankh meri khul gyii hay
Abhi kal tak falak tha das-taras mein
Aur ab apni zameen bhi ajnabi hay

Fana ke baad bhi khawish hay teri
Musafat hai magar kitni karri hay
Kharray hein saans ki sarhad pe tanha
Humaray darmiyan bas zindagi hay

Wednesday, 5 August 2015

Aurat dar-asl maamta hay. bachpan se burha-pay tak hr roop hr rishtay main chahay wo beti ho, behan ho, biwi ho, wo maa'n he hoti hay. aurat muhabbat main apni maamta ko prwaan charhaati hay. wo muhabbat ko apnay ander paalti hay, duniya se chupa k, barri hifazat se bilkul us trha jesay aik maan apnay bachay ko no maah tk apnay pait main paalti hay. phir jb muhabbat k iqrar/ izhar mein kamyab ho jati hay tu jesay bacha pait se nikal k goad mein aa gya ho. bilkul maan ki trha wo apni muhabbat ki nigehdasht main lag jati hay. wo kabhi is se ghafil nahi hoti, sotay jagtay, dhyan usi ki trf lga rehta hay. jesay maan khayal rakhti hay apnay bachay ki bhook piyas ka, seenay se lagaye rakhti hay, choomti hay aur roz usay bara hota dekh k, parwan charhta dekh k khush hoti hay aur apnay Rabb ka shukr adaa krti hay.
Mard maarka araa hotay hain. muhabbat bhi kisi maarkay ki trha injam detay hain. goya muhabbat na hui jang hui. aik challenge. anaa ka mas-ala. aurat ka dil bhi sar zameen-e-ghair ki trha fatah kia, apnay naam k jhanday gaarray, char din fatah ka jashan mnaya aur aagay nikal gaye. nai manzilon ki talash main naye challenges k shoq mein. mard k liay guzishta muhabbatein medals aur trophies ki trha hoti hain. jinhain roz nigehdasht ki zaroorat nahi hoti. bas kabhi kabhar unki taraf nazar parr jaye tu fakhar se sr buland kia, muskuraye aur bass. Mard fitratan muhabbat main tauheed ka qayl nahi hay. aur issay aesa krnay pr majboor bhi nahi kia ja skta. Aik aurat ki muhabbat kafi nahi parti chahay wo apni haddion ka ras nikal k bhi pila day, tab bhi nahi. un k liay buhat kabhi kaafi nahi hota.
buhat tu aurat k liay bhi kafi nahi hota. wo jaan nisar krna chahti hay aur buhat krna chahti hay. pr is k liay usay bass aik sooraj chahiay jo usay hayat bakhshay, jeenay ki waja, muhabbat krnay ki waja, hiddat, hararat, roshni aur tawanaii.