wapsi ka sfr meray liay hmesha he kathan rha hay. main wapsi k khyal say he udaas ho jati hoon. pta nahi yeh udasi kion hoti hay, kabhi kabhi tu mujhy lgta hay k mujhy sirf sfr ka shoq hay. mujhy wapsi utna preshan nahi krti jitna safr khtm honay ka dukh.
wapsi k kuch scene tu hafzay main aesay smaye hain k yad na bhe krna chahoon tu hafzay ki almari say be tarteeb rakhay huay kapron ki trha aik aik kr k girnay lgtay hain. jesay wo muzaffarabad se wapsi. hm garmion ki chuttion main apnay taya k ghr gaye thay. wahan itna dil laga k wapis aanay ko jee he nahi chahta tha. wapsi pr sb say lar kr train main khirki k sath jurr kr bethi thi main. aur baqi behn bhai czns say batain kr rhay thay.aik doosray ko yaad rkhnay aur baqaidgi say khat likhnay ki talqeen ki ja rhi thi. main khirki main dubki bethi baar baar un karron ko dekh rhi thi jo mujhy Aapo nay diay thay. ya bar bar je chahta tha k bag say wo sher nikal k parhoon jo mujhy nanhi baji nay likh k dia tha. wo bohat piyari theen, mujhy aur bhe piyari ho gayi thien, kion k wo pehla shkhs theen jis nay meri soorat ko nahi seerat ko prkha tha. phir aatay huay unhon nay mujhy likh k dia tha ''seerat k hum ghulam hain soorat hui tu kia; surkh-o-sufaid matti ki moorat hui tu kia''. phir train holay holay chlnay lgi.... dair tak hath hiltay rahay.. aur phir dabbay main skoon ho gya. sb ahista ahista neend ki aghosh main janay lgay. mainay bethtay sath he apna dupatta mounh pr daal lia tha. main nahi chahti thi k hmesha ki trha rota dekh kr phir sb mzak urrain... dibbay main bohat khamoshi k bawjood mujhy lg rha tha k sab jaag rhay hain.
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wapsi k kuch scene tu hafzay main aesay smaye hain k yad na bhe krna chahoon tu hafzay ki almari say be tarteeb rakhay huay kapron ki trha aik aik kr k girnay lgtay hain. jesay wo muzaffarabad se wapsi. hm garmion ki chuttion main apnay taya k ghr gaye thay. wahan itna dil laga k wapis aanay ko jee he nahi chahta tha. wapsi pr sb say lar kr train main khirki k sath jurr kr bethi thi main. aur baqi behn bhai czns say batain kr rhay thay.aik doosray ko yaad rkhnay aur baqaidgi say khat likhnay ki talqeen ki ja rhi thi. main khirki main dubki bethi baar baar un karron ko dekh rhi thi jo mujhy Aapo nay diay thay. ya bar bar je chahta tha k bag say wo sher nikal k parhoon jo mujhy nanhi baji nay likh k dia tha. wo bohat piyari theen, mujhy aur bhe piyari ho gayi thien, kion k wo pehla shkhs theen jis nay meri soorat ko nahi seerat ko prkha tha. phir aatay huay unhon nay mujhy likh k dia tha ''seerat k hum ghulam hain soorat hui tu kia; surkh-o-sufaid matti ki moorat hui tu kia''. phir train holay holay chlnay lgi.... dair tak hath hiltay rahay.. aur phir dabbay main skoon ho gya. sb ahista ahista neend ki aghosh main janay lgay. mainay bethtay sath he apna dupatta mounh pr daal lia tha. main nahi chahti thi k hmesha ki trha rota dekh kr phir sb mzak urrain... dibbay main bohat khamoshi k bawjood mujhy lg rha tha k sab jaag rhay hain.
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Islamabad say wapis lahore ja rhi hoon, garmion ki chuttian guzarnay. dil aesa betha ja rha hay k lagta hay kuch baki nahi bacha. ab k jab wapis aaongi is shehr main tu kuch nahi milay ga. youn lgta hay jesay her cheez pukar pukar kr keh rhi ho k mat jao. shyd is liay k mera apna bhi jee nahi chahta is shehr ko chornay k liay. aik din k liay bhi nahi. lekin jo sfr likhay ja chukay wo tu tay krnay he hotay hain. phir meray ruknay say honi ruk tu nahi skti. pr mujhy yeh smjh nahi aati k meri feelings aesi kion hain?.....mujhy koun bta rha hay k ab jb Islamabad aaoongi tu in kalay paharon k peechay say mujhy koi awaz de k nahi bulaye ga.
29th May 2010
Islamabad to Lahore
29th May 2010
Islamabad to Lahore
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